What will they remember?

Good morning Momma,
    I was waking up this morning earlier than the alarm as usual, and I snuggled down into the blankets with Will.  I started thinking about what he would remember when he was my age or when I am gone....  I know he is just a baby now and he will remember nothing at all from the last year or from the two following years but in life what are the things that will stick with him.  I am quite sure that all people are wired differently so given the same situation each will remember something slightly different.  So I have four chances to have one of them say I was a miserable mom.  All of this got me to thinking about you and what I remembered of you when I was little or even kinda grown.
     My brain first went to the time I was in that pageant and I was so very nervous.  I had to have an escort for one of the categories and nowhere in the material did it say that there would be some extra escorts there if the contestant was not able to find or bring one.  I remember having my shoulders glued to my ears and my stomach in knots all the time and then you walked with me and it was almost fun.  You rented that white with blue tux and I think it was almost as much as the fees to get in.  I didn't win really anything but I have that moment when the sideways world of the moment was righted when I was on your arm.  That is worth more than any title I could have won.
     I remember going to work with you for so many hours because I didn't want to be anywhere else.  I remember when I had my necklace stolen off of my neck and you held me because I was afraid and Grandma scolded you for coddling me.  I wonder if you were holding me for me or for you.  It just occured to me that if something was stolen off of one of my girls I would think of all the things that could have happened to them and I may not let them go for some time either.  I wonder why you didn't tell Grandma to stick it.  I remember a lot of time in the car.  Sometimes we were going to something fun but mostly we were coming home and we would have great adventures.  We were the best adventurers ever.  I want mine to feel that they and I were the best something ever.
     Today is going to be a new adventure for all of us and I wonder if in 25 years they will think about it.  I just don't know.  I love you.  I wish you could see them.  Aly misses you so much.  I wonder if she will remember you when she is grown.  I know she was your sparkle and she is mine also.  Rest well.